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Ohmygoodness can you believe that it is already June!?!?!?!?!?!?!? WOW!!!!!!!!! Time is going so fast. I honestly don't know where it is all going. We are already literally almost half way done with 2011 isn't that insane. It's officially summer so we are all out of school! YAY!!!!!!!! I seriously remember typing that summer was right around the corner and now here it is we are already part way through! Lol. OK so I remember all the way back in January I was talking about how I love and hate new years all at the same time. I love new years because it marks a new beginning but hate it because it also marks time lost and never regained. Well this year actually last month something happened in my life which is now gone...Last month was a horribly hard month. It really was terrible for me I struggled the whole month and it was so difficult. You are probably wondering why was last month so hard....well one of my very best friends was killed. When it happened I was so in shock honestly I didn't know what to do or what to say....it was like I was in a dream. I felt like I was in a crazy nightmare and for some reason could not wake up. I wanted to wake up but could not. Honestly it has been several weeks now and I still can't fully grasp that they are gone. I know that they are in Heaven with Jesus but honestly when it happened I became very depressed and confused and honestly I stopped praying and reading my Bible. I drew into my shell. I didn't want to talk about it I wanted to die to. I was so shocked and so upset I wasn't thinking clearly. I was running away from God when I needed him the most. I should of run towards Him during that tough time and it probably would of made my life a lot easier that month. Honestly I was a little mad at God I was frustrated that He would let my friend die. I was upset that it was over that I would never see them again but you know that's not really true because I will see them again in Heaven. I was so confused and honestly I still am I don't understand the purpose of God taking my friend but God's timing is perfect. We all have a set amount of days and I guess my friend ran out. They had completed everything they needed to do. They died serving the Lord and were one of the strongest Christians I knew. The hard fact of life is that we are not always going to understand. Sometimes horrible things will happen and we won't always understand. Actually most of the time we don't but I know that my God is good and His love endures forever. Because of my friend's death more then 13 people were lead to the Lord. So there life wasn't taken in vain or anything remotely like that. One life was lost who was Heaven bound already to save more then 13 from DEATH.....I cannot wait to be reunited in Heaven. : ) Girls this is all to say that life happens it's going to be tough and mow you down and try to tear you apart. But through it all we need to stay strong in God and in our faith because that's what's going to bring us through these hardships we go through. Praise God in every storm because He knows exactly what He is doing and he is worth it! I love you all!

"Christ will be magnified in my body whether by life or by death." Philippians 1:20

Hold My Heart

By Tenth Avenue North

Verse 1

How long must I pray?

Must I pray to you?

How long must I wait?

Must I wait for you?
How long until I see your face?

See you shining through?

Bridge

I'm on my knees

Begging you to notice me

I'm on my knees

Father will you turn to me?

Yeah

Chorus

One tear in the driving rain

One voice in a sea of pain

Could the maker of the stars

Hear the sound of my breaking heart?

One life is all I am

Right now I can barely stand

If your everything you say you are

Would you come close and heal my heart?

Verse 2

I've been so afraid

Afraid to close my eyes

So much can slip away

Before I say goodbye

But if there's no other way

I'm done asking why

Bridge

Cause I'm on my knees

Begging you to turn to me

I'm on my knees

Father will you run to me?

Yeah

Chorus

One tear in the driving rain

One voice in a sea of pain

Could the maker of the stars

Hear the sound of my breaking heart?

One life is all I am

Right now I can barely stand

If your everything you say you are

Would you come close and heal my heart?

Verse 3

So many questions without answers

Your promises remain

I can't see but I will take my chances

To hear you call my name

Chorus

One tear in the driving rain

One voice in a sea of pain

Could the maker of the stars

Hear the sound of my breaking heart?

One life is all I am

Right now I can barely stand

If your everything you say you are

Would you come close and heal my heart?

Would you hold my heart?

Hold my heart

If you want to read a true short story I wrote on my friends funeral see Think and Do under the Freebie Time article* PS. Hey everyone! I wanted to let you all know that I am trying to expand my website some. In the effort to do that I have added a few new sections and articles to my site. You may have noticed seven month's ago I added a Reccommended Reads article! I also have added a Fitness Center article where you can get fitness tips and work out advice! : ) One last thing is that six months ago I posted a short stoy that I wrote and I had positive feed back from that article so I decided to post a new story every so often! You can find the Fitness Center article under the Quiz in the section Games N Tips! I hope you all enjoy my new sections and articles! Be sure to check them out if you have the time! : ) Enjoy!